Autumn Spaciousness
checking in from the flu portal
It’s 11.11 just as I start typing this up.
Then now as I type this sentence it’s 17.53. I just realised I needed to heat up my lunch, then wanted to go to the pharmacy as a sore started growing on the right side of my lips, and after that ended up doing a restorative class and giving myself acupuncture…
That’s how it goes with my creative expression lately, fitting it in into these tight micro spaces between all the things. (In around 30 min my boyfriend will be home from a long day at work and it’ll be cuddle time.)
As much as September has been about letting go, it has also been about nesting into that spaciousness created.
On the day of the Virgo new moon precisely was the day I told my GP tutor I wished to no longer work with her. At first she looked at me with wide eyes, at first not quite understanding what I was saying. It felt like the following silence and my firm gaze set the message through.
This decision took me months to even formulate.
In two weeks time, my request got approved by the head of our department and I was assigned to a new tutor.
When things are meant to change there’s such an easeful flow once that decision is made - said a dear friend of mine and I could not agree more.
My ER practice began on the 16th of September. I have feared this day the most for the past year. If you would have told me I’d be here a year ago I would not have believed it. I’ll most likely be writing more on it on here - it feels like an initiation, a portal, a ceremony - but I don’t want to dive into it now.
In the spaciousness created by giving up my weekly GP visits and replacing my normal workdays to 12 hour shifts and more days off - I got more time off than I could even dream of this week.
That was what gave me permission to enter the flu portal. I have been having a sore throat for over a week. Monday night my body started sweating, the throat got worse, I could feel myself slipping into it - but somehow stopped myself as I still had a shift the next day.
It took another 3 days, for my stress hormones to wear off, before my symptoms reappeared. I kept wondering, what would have happened if I just kept working?
We’ve had this conversation with a dear IG friend of mine before, that the actual ‘symptoms’ we have are in fact happening as the body is starting to shed, get rid of infections, heal itself. Zac Bush even says, that flus are needed for the body from time to time and can be thought of as ‘regenerative resets’.
It could not have been better timing, right during this eclipse season.
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This flu was also giving me a chance to cosy up and at last, arrive to our new home. After 4 months of living here, a repaint and new furnitures and a summer filled with trips to the countryside, I am finally coming home.
Just as our actual physical home is coming together, I find myself coming home.
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Ways to work/rest with me this month:
Elle Yoga Weekend on the 5th of October I’ll be hosting a Restorative yoga and Ear Acupuncture class + you’re the first to hear here that I’ll be offering Ear Acupuncture sessions on Sunday 09.00-14.00 at the Namaste yoga room
Mamas to be in the next couple of months, I am finally opening up my doors again for pregnancy and postpartum care (including whatever fits you needs: water therapy sessions, ayurvedic oil massage, herbal support, acupressure, meal train prep, closing of the bones ceremony, emotional support). Email me for a free online consultation.
Concerning Restorative classes - I need your feedback, should I be creating classes online or in person? English or Hungarian? Let me know and I’ll get going.
Keep your eye out for further programs, I have a few collaborations brewing behind the scenes ;)
With all my love,
Zsof